If there is nothing out there, then who is out there to heal?
I have pondered this question often, and have hesitated sharing my reflections because I have friends and family who are healers in all fields – medical, psychological, spiritual – and it is terrain that I respect and honour.
When I began my journey of awakening, I read everything related to healing. I was studying to go to medical school, even though it wasn’t really my passion or calling. But I had an interest in the human body, which led me to exploring what healing and wholeness means beyond the domain of the physical body.
As I understood that we are essentially energy, I began working with energy, directing it through me into my hands to whoever requested it. I was always clear, however, that I was merely the conduit and that the Energy (which I understood to be Love) knew exactly what it needed to do. My only role was to allow it to flow, as openly and purely as possible, unobstructed by my expectations and ideas about healing.
But as my own spiritual practice deepened, and as I began to understand that what I was seeing in my world was a PROJECTION of my inner world onto the screen of my life, I began to ask that difficult question:
If I’m the source of what’s in my experience, then what is this person with illness (cancer, diabetes, disorders, trauma, etc.) doing in my life?
Where is this projection coming from? And why?
To look within ME as the SOURCE of the “sick people” in my life shook me to the core and was a radical shift in my thinking because it was suggesting that:
The person in my life with cancer? I put them there.
The person with severe anxiety and trauma? I put them there.
The person who only spoke of illness and disease? I put them there.
It felt ridiculous to even consider that I would be putting these people in my life, in my experience. Why would I do that? What possible motive could I have?
To acknowledge, let alone accept and take 100% responsibility for this, has been a journey all its own!
Every so slowly, however, I began to unravel their purpose – their loving purpose – and the incredible gift these individuals were offering me, simply by showing up in my life.
They are the agents through which I am able to see and free the pain inside me.
And in liberating myself, I liberate them.
The deeply-rooted traumas, beliefs, programs, memories that I have around health and wholeness and WHO I AM are buried in my subconscious – way beyond the reach of my everyday mind.
When I feel afraid, impatient, dismissive, judgmental, distant, withholding, filled with tragedy – the range of emotions that show up when I’m with those individuals – that’s my clue that these subconscious programs are knocking on the door of my heart and asking to be freed. To be whole. To be returned to Love.
These individuals have taken on the loving task of showing me all the blockages to wholeness that exist within me, so that I may love them (the blockages) free.
And there is nothing in this Universe that I can Love free that isn’t freed everywhere.
Because we are all connected. We are all One.
Is there anything more loving that I can do to honour the precious gift of their presence than to do the inner work of healing the trauma at its source, which is within me?
That, to me, is how Love – and healing – works.
It’s a big task, for it requires me to be constantly in the present moment, aware of – and completely accepting of – whoever shows up in my experience.
If I see news about someone with cancer or any other illness, I am already clearing within me.
If I meet someone who tells me of their difficulties (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual), I’m clearing.
When someone comes to see me for a personal session, I’m clearing before I even see them.
I’m clearing within ME (in my subconscious mind) whatever has brought them into my experience, whatever binds us in less-than-wholeness. I do this work in the silence of my heart, and in connection with Spirit.
When I am with this person – if I need to be with them at all – I am fully present. I know my spaces are filled with Love. And that the energies that need to come through me at the moment – be they in words or in stillness – are Perfect.
That's the only healing work I do today. There is nothing out there.
Can you imagine what would happen if we all did this within ourselves for the “sick” people in our lives? If all healers did this inner work before even seeing a patient? Would the patients even still be sick?
So many questions to ponder… and revelations to be made on this journey.
Love, always. 🙏💞
Mony
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#monydojeiji #walkingforpeace #consciousness #healing #healer #nothingoutthere #love
I have pondered this question often, and have hesitated sharing my reflections because I have friends and family who are healers in all fields – medical, psychological, spiritual – and it is terrain that I respect and honour.
When I began my journey of awakening, I read everything related to healing. I was studying to go to medical school, even though it wasn’t really my passion or calling. But I had an interest in the human body, which led me to exploring what healing and wholeness means beyond the domain of the physical body.
As I understood that we are essentially energy, I began working with energy, directing it through me into my hands to whoever requested it. I was always clear, however, that I was merely the conduit and that the Energy (which I understood to be Love) knew exactly what it needed to do. My only role was to allow it to flow, as openly and purely as possible, unobstructed by my expectations and ideas about healing.
But as my own spiritual practice deepened, and as I began to understand that what I was seeing in my world was a PROJECTION of my inner world onto the screen of my life, I began to ask that difficult question:
If I’m the source of what’s in my experience, then what is this person with illness (cancer, diabetes, disorders, trauma, etc.) doing in my life?
Where is this projection coming from? And why?
To look within ME as the SOURCE of the “sick people” in my life shook me to the core and was a radical shift in my thinking because it was suggesting that:
The person in my life with cancer? I put them there.
The person with severe anxiety and trauma? I put them there.
The person who only spoke of illness and disease? I put them there.
It felt ridiculous to even consider that I would be putting these people in my life, in my experience. Why would I do that? What possible motive could I have?
To acknowledge, let alone accept and take 100% responsibility for this, has been a journey all its own!
Every so slowly, however, I began to unravel their purpose – their loving purpose – and the incredible gift these individuals were offering me, simply by showing up in my life.
They are the agents through which I am able to see and free the pain inside me.
And in liberating myself, I liberate them.
The deeply-rooted traumas, beliefs, programs, memories that I have around health and wholeness and WHO I AM are buried in my subconscious – way beyond the reach of my everyday mind.
When I feel afraid, impatient, dismissive, judgmental, distant, withholding, filled with tragedy – the range of emotions that show up when I’m with those individuals – that’s my clue that these subconscious programs are knocking on the door of my heart and asking to be freed. To be whole. To be returned to Love.
These individuals have taken on the loving task of showing me all the blockages to wholeness that exist within me, so that I may love them (the blockages) free.
And there is nothing in this Universe that I can Love free that isn’t freed everywhere.
Because we are all connected. We are all One.
Is there anything more loving that I can do to honour the precious gift of their presence than to do the inner work of healing the trauma at its source, which is within me?
That, to me, is how Love – and healing – works.
It’s a big task, for it requires me to be constantly in the present moment, aware of – and completely accepting of – whoever shows up in my experience.
If I see news about someone with cancer or any other illness, I am already clearing within me.
If I meet someone who tells me of their difficulties (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual), I’m clearing.
When someone comes to see me for a personal session, I’m clearing before I even see them.
I’m clearing within ME (in my subconscious mind) whatever has brought them into my experience, whatever binds us in less-than-wholeness. I do this work in the silence of my heart, and in connection with Spirit.
When I am with this person – if I need to be with them at all – I am fully present. I know my spaces are filled with Love. And that the energies that need to come through me at the moment – be they in words or in stillness – are Perfect.
That's the only healing work I do today. There is nothing out there.
Can you imagine what would happen if we all did this within ourselves for the “sick” people in our lives? If all healers did this inner work before even seeing a patient? Would the patients even still be sick?
So many questions to ponder… and revelations to be made on this journey.
Love, always. 🙏💞
Mony
* * *
#monydojeiji #walkingforpeace #consciousness #healing #healer #nothingoutthere #love
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